When we first met,
You were nice;
You were kind;
I had finally found a person that could walk along beside me;
Who would never leave me behind

The days passed quickly-
We went through all the hard times,
Sad times,
Happy times,
Chaotic times together-
We were practically one half of the other

But as we all know;
A repated pattern throughout history till this day;
Is the one where things are bound to change-
You changed;
I changed;
It was inevitable

Inseprable as we were in the past;
We behaved like we never shared those moments together
Unknown to each other-
We eventually became strangers;
What happened to the frendship i felt at the beginning?
Was it all a lie?

When u finally spoke to me again,
I could tell there was something not quite right about you-
Exactly what it was-i couldn't tell;
But there was one thing i knew to be-
It was definitely a friendship gone awry

When we were past the usual greetings like
"How have you been?"
"What have you done up to now?"
I felt the rusty cogs of our friendship begin to turn again;
And a warm feeling seeped into my heart

Suddenly there was nothing-
Big, black holes began to appear in my memories of you
What was happening?
I tried shaking my head to rid myself of this nightmare;
More black spots appeared; and my vision turned slightly red

Why?
You left me for another-
You left me bleeding;
How could you pretend like nothing happenend?
Was that how friendship worked?

When u came running into my arms yet again;
I let you cry your heart out-
I comforted you;
I cared for you-
As if nothing had happened just like before

I clung on to you like it was a choice between life or death;
To suffer or to lose the only person i cared for the most;
And as my already torn soul was ripped further-
I tried my best to keep it from you;
I'm not sure if you ever noticed the pain i felt;
But even if you did,you did not speak of it

You came and left as you wished-
And i was always always there for you;
You were like the clouds and i was like the sun;
When you were with me everything else went unnoticed;
And when you disappeared there was nothing left to distract me

I sat in a dark corner;
Screaming; always screaming;
And as silent tears ran down my face;
I comforted myself that you would one day notice my pain;
And would be there to comfort me;
To treasure me;
And would return to stay for a little while more

I waited for what seemed like years;
But you never did come back-
Although i waited and stayed beside you throughout;
You never once turned back to look at me-
Not even once.
I cried my heart out like there was no tomorrow;
And it was never enough-
For all the pain i felt was enough was enough to rival the water of the seas

It was then i noticed what you actually were-
You treated the men you've just met better than me although i knew you longer;
I've seen the way u treated them; and i felt lower than dirt
The stick that broke the camel's back was when u blamed everything on me;
Even when i was not even in the wrong

You lied to me,
You cheated my sincerity,
You stole precious hours of my time;
While you turned others against me-
My vision turned many different hues of red

I was never trusted by others-
And it was all because of you
When you cried there was always someone there for you-
But never anyone there for me;
I felt the Red-eyed demon beginning to rear its head and rip its way out of my tattered soul

You've caused me so much hurt;
But the funny thing is that you've never realised;
You've offended many others without knowing-
And they all swallowed it down though you repeatedly made them suffer-
Do you have any idea what you've done?

People say i should let you know who you actually are-
And shatter the rosy painting you painted of yourself;
But i could not find it in myself to do so,
Though you've treated me this way

I keep asking myself why am i still hesitating to hurt you-
When you've never so much as blinked when you hurt me repeatedly
I keep asking myself why do i keep crying over you-
Although i know it is not worth it
So why am i still hesitating?

Is it time for me to step up and out?
Is it time for you to know that you've hurt me and many others?
Or should i just wait until you found out yourself-perhaps years later?
Should i just leave this pain and suffering behind and walk out of this life?
Or should i just continue clinging on while my soul gets further torn apart?

The way you spoke of me to others was as if i never existed;
You spoke as if you were the only one who suffered;
Did you even know the pain i went through just to keep this bond with you?
Every word you spoke rained a sharp shower of icy needles-
It pierced heavily through me;
Like a monsoon with endless velocity;

Should i forget you and move on?
Would you even remember me as a friend that you once had?
Or should i assume that i was just a mist to you-
That only managed to cloud your vision for only a mere second?
Would you be happier without me...i wonder?

-Kurame