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Wednesday, January 7, 2009
haiz...
i'm so crushed right now.not on good terms wif my mum,jus for the sake of someone....its been such a crappo first week of sch.cried, got pissed off, got lost, confused, tired, stressed, cornered, misunderstood, disliked, troubled, uncared about, treated as a foul piece of trash, a stalking shadow, ignored, shouted at, miserable....life isnt that bad now right?
i loved you,i cared for you,but once you lost your feelings for me,you threw me away like a dirty piece of rag.just as i was beginning to have the courage to lift my head that has always been down up again.now i'm lost,confused,are you happy now?hope you are.a happy life is one i never had,coz i have suffered,no matter where i went or what i did-i was never anything much
to anyone;coz i'm worthless;useless;clumsy;ugly;and hopeless....i wasnt worth much in the eyes of my australian stepfather so why would it be any different now? i was a fool for hoping that everything would change.but i was very wrong.i'm exhausted.i want to shut myself up and be isolated as i should be....unless there was someone there to save me....
some of u might joke when u read this - go ahead. i'm scarred beyond recognition is just that i dont show it.that's all.enjoy laughing ur arses off then (:
-Ariake- 6:05 PM
